This Might Hurt

Ah yes, so we're into 9 months of the pandemic. (I took a whole minute to count from March to November, this kids is what binging the stupidest shows on Netflix does to you). Oh wait you all forgot there was a pandemic didn't you! I recently read that there's a vaccine coming out soon. I also read a research that we're so unhygienic as a country that even the vaccine went "chee" when it tried to infect us. Talking about research, I conducted one, on me, after I started this blog. This research concluded yesterday and the results say that I can sure think of the most complex topics to write about. But on 90% percent of the occasions I sit down to write about them, I'll fail and then watch Conan's YouTube channel. Hence, I've decided to talk about the world's easiest topic today: relationships

Before y'all come at me for picking a topic which is the personality of every third person on Instagram, I'm already apologizing for it. But it's real scary how almost every movie we've watched shows that everyone is meant for someone. Every Disney princess has a prince, every Bollywood couple will fall in love after a dance number. A girl fell in love with a bee for god's sake(Really Vanessa, that's how insecure you are? Wait till Barry stings you and calls it a love bite) The worst part is it affects us as a whole and now every person thinks that they're meant for someone. I'm not against relationships, I can't stand the whole hype. We do the stupidest things to stay in relationships. We change how we feel about things, we distance our friends from ourselves not realizing that if you need to do all of this just to stay in a relationship, the first thing you need to do is get out of it!

There's this cool analogy that Daniel Sloss talks about in his special, "Jigsaw". Basically, it says that our lives are like a jigsaw puzzle, but we've lost the original picture. Now we've to solve this whole puzzle without knowing what it looks like. So, we start with the corners of the puzzle which are job, friends, hobbies, and family. Now, we go and try to find how the center looks like and it always seems like that the center is meant for the partner. Then starts the hunt for a partner. Eventually, you do find one and everything perfect for 3 months or max a year. After that you realize that the pictures both of you are working towards are look different. You still try and push them into your jigsaw which ends up in disrupting the corners you somehow arranged. I’ll leave you to introspect a little bit now(when I first watched jigsaw and heard this bit, it was such a massive attack. ah nvm. I'll leave you to it)

I don’t feel like dragging this on now. (Which I very successfully can because if people can make Instagram pages all based on this but like way worse.)

I feel like a total hypocrite writing this. I completely gave up my personality for a person who I fell in love with like a year and a half ago. Only to realize I was the most fucking clingy person there could be.

(this article is going to reduce my chances of finding someone from the already almost existing chances that there are.)

That’s it, I’m done venting about this, see y’all next week.